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Thursday, November 30, 2006

hee hee... so long never updates liaws.... wanna know whys?? cause i'm super busy!!! hahahahahaha!!! real busy... so busy till i can only survive one day just by eating one loaft of bread larh!! hahahahaha.... also very de stress and depress lor.. hias.... lost weight again sia... from 78 drop till 75 liaws... hahahaha anywies now got most of the stuff done liaws so can update me bloggy le....

but don't know what to write sia.... cause nothing much interesting happened larh..... just work work and work even more... hias... reall busy sem sia....

wait maybe can write something.. yeah i just found out this monday that i got top marks for my math ^^ hahahahaha shock sia me.... my marks only 80+ ( i didn't see my marks.. is my friend tell me one..) it seems that for the last question in the maths paper i was the only who could get it right i the whole of the class hahahaha!!! SO PROUD!!! hahahahahaha... any how tikam tikam can also correct wahh!!!

oh and also my family is AGAIN going overseas.... this time to hongkong....4days 3 nights... and guess wat?? they are leaving me home alone again!!! wahhhhh!!! cause i got test!!!................

SSSSSOOOOOO SSSSSSSAAAAAADDDDD...... hias.... to much things to buy there sia.... wait... i don't actually buy stuff there right?? i just carry things only :(.... hahahahha... but still i would like to go there larh!!! so much things to see there ^^ ahh wells... my time will come hahhahahhahaha!!! yes and when it comes i'll treasure it ^^ hee hee....

hmmmsss i guess i should end here liaws.... still got a little more work to do... so chows!!!

11:47 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Thursday, November 23, 2006

hee hee..... late post again.... hahahaha yeah got me DE test mark yesterday!! hahahaha!! suprised myslef by geting 86 marks ^^ hahahahaha another A!!! yeah!!! real cool.... now in maths lesson^^ trying to learn how to inverse 3 by 3 matrics hahahahaha!!! so coooooolll( like real..)

had a freaky weird dream last night.... hahahaha dreamt that i slept through today and waking up only on friday night!!! scared the freaking daylights out of me sia... thought it was that time of the year again... phew... anywies an intresting fact bout dreams is that one can never do what one wants in a dram cause u'll just wake up if u tried... hias...... oh well nows only left maths marks liaws... and i think i can only get it like next week sia.......

on other topics.... O's are over!! and secondary school are having holidays while we're still studing our ass off... wooooo.... wy can't holidays come sooner?? RawR!!!!

10:30 AM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

alright... i know this is a little late but still better late than never... hahahahahaha!!! guess how much i got for my PEEE??? 76!! hahahahaha tyco one seriously sia...most of the question all don't know...MCQ of 6 question 4 don't know.... in the end got 3 out of 4 right ^^ so lucky!!! hahahahahaha!!! at first think i'll fail it lor... wahh but lucky never hahahahaha

next one is DE liaws.... that one i come in test late then i walked out the room in like 20 mins.... hahahahahah!!! last person to come in... 2nd on to exit!! wahh i power sia!!! exciting ^^ hahahahaha!!!

today also is suppose to get back my maths paper too... but then i lazy to wait after tutorial.. so i pon class lor!!! clever right ^^ hee hee.... another reason is cause got many many homework must hand in..... then i never do... so pon lor ^^

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YEAHH!!! my parents coming back to singapore tml le!!! so tml must go home early early!! then can see what they bought for me^^ hope its food larh!!! then can eat!!! hahahahaha!!! also they come back liaws means i'll be getting the pool table sooner too!! hahahaha!!! then like this everyday all pon class come home play pool!!! hahahahaha!!! so fun!! =)

oh an another amazing fact...

u can gain a kg if u eat 2 bread in the morning and sitting down on ur ass and not thing for the rest of the day... ^^ it happened to me!!! omg!! 1 kg more to lose :(

12:21 AM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Monday, November 20, 2006

hahaha so long never update le...

today i'll be getting back my PEEE paper and hopfully my maths paper too... yups... sudi(my PEEE lect) said average our class got is 75% with 2 person who fail!!.. very de scared lehs....

yeah also this term i promised myself to study hard and well so i can make the cut... yup... cannot slack nows.. end year coming liaws.. hahahahaha!! STUDY!!!

8:58 AM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

OMG..... what a day today it was..... today is my the DE mst paper... then last night i check the time it looked like it was at 2pm so i went to sleep thinking it was 2....

The next day i woke up too a shower and did what normal ppl do in the morning... then at 1 i left for school... from my home to school it will take bout 30 mins.... so i reached school at 1:30 plus.... i then went to check the time table and to my horror it starts at 1 :30!!! i was like shit!! i ran to the class( thank goodness it wasn't far away... when i entered the room it was like 1:45 liaws.... shit only got 45 mins left....

Then that stupid lect say what must see my pass before i can sit the paper.. so i look for it and wasted more time.... when i was finally able to sit for it i rushed quickly started... i just kept doing and doing...i didn't know then time then... when i finished my paper i asked the lecuter how much time was left he said there is still 20 mins... i was like WHAT??? i thought i miss a question or something so i double check... no i did not.... WOW.... i finished that paper is like what less then 30 mins... hahahahahaha!!! and the paper lasted for an hr larh!!!

Wahh i paniced and checked again.... hahahahaha but still cannot find anything wrong lehs.... then the lect annouced that there is still 15 mins left.. i looked at my wet question paper( wet from my sweat from running up 5 floors...) then i looked at her... and i hand in the paper...!!! hahahahaha!!! yup!!! i was the last one to come in..... the 2nd one to come out!!! hahahahaha!!! sure die liaws.... don't know what i'm doing orh...

I think i somehow managed to slow down time without even knowing it!!! hahaha!!!! so cool!!! cause when i was doing the paper it felt like super long larh!!! lucky me...

anywies tml is my last paper liaws... hope it will be diff this time round... hahahahahaha!!!

10:46 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Monday, November 13, 2006

oks.... now closing to midnight liaws... and i still can't seem to get less depressed.... totaly messed up my papaer today larh... don't think can even pass sia.... hahahahaha.... if this keep ups i not sure if i can carry orh... cried on my way back home today.. hahahaha serioulsy... for no reason i just cried... not that type of cry cry... but just cry... u know when u r like kinda sad cause u watch a sad movie or something.. yeah that type of cry larh.... it was a nice feeling... for that moment i felt that nothing was there....nothing at all.....

ah wells anywies today or rather night i had wayne over to study.... but then in the end also never study... just talk bull and play play only.... then think we played abit too much liaws... hahahaha got into trouble hahahaha!! yeah and i thought him one of my best magic tricks.. called" follow me" hahahahahaha must tell me when u do it hor i wanna see the guy's face!!

ok got to go sleep liaws.... must have enough rest for tml's paper....

11:53 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

crap crap crap........ 1 more hr to my exams.... and i still cannot concentrate..... theres still too much things on my mind..... maybe i should just give up??? no... can't..... but then theres just so much pain.... has... how i hate myself for not knowing when i've lost......

thinking bout this... i wonder when was i really happy.... i mean really really happy.... i don't know...i seriously don't....i must say... my blog has more sad stuff and crap then anyother blog in the world... hahahaha....right must look forward.... ha... that what they keep telling me... but look forward to what... i don't know... used to look towards the mst... hahahaha...but now? its only the first day.. and all i got so far is pain.... and lots of it... no stress but lots of pain...

you knows something?? 2 nights ago... one of my past friends form XBOX live can online... he's a very good friend... i ain't kinda shy on what i share with him... cause he's from aus... while i'm in sing... let me tell u what i know bout him larh...

i call him "filmer" as that his nick name.... we don't really tell each other our real names anywies... he's 18 and had a girlfriend for 6 years... lost his virginity at 14 lol.. yup... that he told me.... oh and he is a millionare too!! casue his job earn him bout 14 mill a month... what job i won't say but hahahaha thats according to him larh... i not really sure... but he has 2 xbox360 and 2 of everygame.... so he's quite well off... anywies... i told him bout some of my girl troubles and he gave me a advise...... be who i am.... they don't care what u have or how u look,( ok maybe abit o how u look but stil...) i just need my personality......"personality".... i thought bout it... the whole night... what type of personality am i? what i think i am is a loner... hee hee... i don't mingle well with big crowds... when someone better comes along, i just disappear like the wind... after all... they won't realise that i'm gone... yup thats what i am.... a loner...

i try really hard not to be one... but each time i see someone better coming, i make stupid excuses and run away from it...i can't seem to help it... think its becoming more of a habit liaws.....maybe i got a "personality" problem hahahahaha....don't know how i'm going to life the rest of my life.... hahahahaha... depending too much on god to lead me... but each time i seem to stray away from the path he's given me... only coming back when i've lost my way and he found me once again to lead me back... but then i'll stray away again.... hahahaha maybe god should like leash me or something..... that way it will be harder for me to stray eh?? hahahaha....

2:37 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

in 2 hrs and 30 mins time will be my first papaer of this sem...... don't really feel prepared for it... in fact i don't eve feel like taking the paper.... mind thinking too much atm... heart is screaming in pain...drowning in it's own tears... that how i feel right now larh... seriously low moral... don't think i'll do well lor if this keeps up....they say chocolate can kill ur sorrows... so i went out to buy a packets of MnMs... finished to whole packet......think i felt better.... yesterday i was looking through the past messages in my phone... it seems i've got alot of messages in there from a long way back... roughlt bout may that period.... reading them again my heart kinda felt like whole again..... i guess thoses was the time when i felt that i was someone... but nows... i'm nobody... HA.... really does suit me doesn't it.... nobody....

sometims is blame god for making me who i am..... then i realised that god may have made me... but it's my decisions that make me who i am... i just haven't treasured the moments god had given me time and time again..... promises i've made.... i've broke... what a fool i am...

now i make sure what promises i made to him will be kept... from now till the time i see him... all will be met... never again shall i break his heart....

let me end this post with a prayer....
"Lord.... i pray that u'll forgive me for all my sins.... guide me along the path u've chosen for me.. help me throught the pain, sorrow,betrayal.... let me know that i'll never be alone again... for i know that u'll always be beside me.... give me faith to overcome doubts... give me strength to overcome fear...i pray that u'll give me the chance i seek... in ur name i pray.. amen..."

11:58 AM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Friday, November 10, 2006

hahahaha oh wait... i just remembered... my family going off to japan for 11 days tml.. and i'll be ALL ALONE!!! wahh!!! so sad....... really sad.... life is horrible... wahhh.. hard to catch a break..... hias..... but anywies... anyone wanna bunk over at my house??? ^^

12:06 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Hias..... only a few more days to the exams.. and i still have alot to learn lor....if only she would come down... hias... anywies... now i'm at moberly studying... hahahaha ok i was studying now blogging.. take a bit of a break...^^ anywies yeah.. here super empty lor!!! thought i went wrong place... today first time here anywies... very de nice place... very good for studying... not like T16... too many ppl there liaws... so today i thought i give moberly a try.. hahaha!! thinking back to the past where i was so alone..... spend each day watching tv, reading books... hardly ever go out... and now.. siting alone.. ha.... it was a very good feelin.. no worries... no pain... nothing... but always there was something missing....^^ ah wells... past is the past... look forward ahahaha!!..

lets talk bit bout yesterday since i never update... yeah same thing... went to school at 8 also..... was empty at that time but round 9 ppl started rolling in... gotten quite nosiy so cannot study... then at 9:30 i called ash.... ask her see if she coming down not... and she say no... ouch..... ^^ yeah then i didn't quite study from then on larh.. so i packed my things and went home... was bout 11 plus by the time i left... then i realised i haven't eaten at all hahahaha not even breakfast... so i went to mac and bought a big mac... and i made a big discovery... one can finish a big mac in 6 bites^^ hahaahahaha!!! yup.... in 6 bite hahahahaha.. drowning my sorrows in burger... hias.... feeling very de down.... at that point... anywies got home bout 12 and went to sleep.... then bout the afternoon.... there was this freak storm.. casue a blackout at my house... thunder and lighting was flashing outside my house..... i didn't care... just contiune sleeping..... as i thought of what had been, the thunder just keeps getting louder and louder..... but it just can't seem to block out that voice in my head..... finally i was able to sleep... woke up bout 7,.... went to have my dinner and played a few games.... then round 12 my sister came back from tawian... hahahaha and i finally got my vodoo doll.... she got me this cute cupid doll... very nice.... hahaha... yeah then that reall bout it yesterday..... now i think i better get back to studying liaws....hahaha!!

11:47 AM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

crap day... come to school today at 8am to study PEEE.... then study 2 hrs plus plus then sian liaws.... crap larh... then at bout 9:30 jordan came... then at 10 plus more of the year 2s came..... but where the hells are the year 1s orh....

crap larh super bored.... don't know where they all go orh... ppl message them all never reply!! RawR!!!! think i go jump into lake drown myself liaws......sucky day..... further updates along the way... just waithing for them to happen only..... hope something good happen lor....

1:10 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

ARH!!! I'm so confused with my life larh!!!..

exams coming up le.. and i haven't even start to study larh!!! so many things i don't know how to do orh...then also deep in feeling not very de good lor... very de confused bout what i want to do sia... sometime i really hate myself for being who i am larh.... so manything i want to say but don't know hows... why cause i'm afraid to lose her... hais..RawR.... no mood to study liaws larh... really sadded.... was so looking foward to the exams and stuff larh.. but then nows... feel so lost and down... pity there ain't a script written for us when we are born... life would be so much easier following it lors... why can't i have a break......

11:01 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

This is quite a nice chain letter i recieved today... explains quite alot^^ hahahahaha hope u all enjoy it^^

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote to whom we please but one kiss.

Article 1:

Statement of Love: The Kiss

1.Kiss on the hand = I adore you

2.Kiss on the cheek = I just want to be friends

3.Kiss on the neck = I want you

4.Kiss on the lips = I love you

5.Kiss on the ears = I am just playing

6.Kiss anywhere else = lets not get carried away

7.Look in your eyes = kiss me

8.Playing with your hair = I can't live without you

9.Hand on your waist = I love you to much to let you go

Article 2:

The Three Steps

1.Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2.Guys: If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.Guys & Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.

Article 3:

The Commandments

1.Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2.Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3.Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

Remember, a peach is a peach, a plum is a plum, a kiss isn't a kiss, without some tongue. So open up your mouth close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1.They will always smell good even if its just shampoo.

2.The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.

3.How cute they look when they sleep.

4.The ease in which they fit into our arms.

5.The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.

6.How cute they are when they eat.

7.The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.

8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.

9.The way they look good no matter what they wear.

10.The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the mostbeautiful thing on this earth.

11.How cute they are when they argue.

12.The way her hand always finds yours.

13.The way they smile.

14.The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight.

15.The way she says lets not fight anymore!! even though you know that an hour later....

16.The way they kiss when you do something nice for them.

17.The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".

18.Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry.

20.Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.

21.The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.

22.Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. even though we don't admit it)!

23.The way they say "I miss you".

24.The way you miss them.

25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

8:43 PM;
-=NoBoDy wAs HeRe=-

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